When people ask me where I get my ideas from, I tell them I use the world around me. Life is so abundant, if you can write down the actual details of the way things were and are, you hardly need anything else. Even if you relocate the French doors, fast-spinning overhead fan, small red Dell laptop, and low black kneeling chair from your office that you work in in Sydney into an Artist’s Atelier in the south of France at another time, the story will have truth and groundedness.
In Hermione Hoby’s interview with Elizabeth Strout in last Saturday’s Guardian newspaper the Pulitzer prize winner said her stories have always begun with a person, and her eyes and ears are forever open to these small but striking human moments, squirreling them away for future use. “Character, I’m just interested in character,” she said.
- Joanna lives in a Sydney suburb with her two sons. It’s 1992 and Australia is in recession.
- “I’m sick of licking arse in a service industry,” she says of her marketing business. “And I’m fed up with financial insecurity, the feast or famine of too many projects or not enough and chasing new business and getting clients to pay their bills.”
- “I’m thinking of renting the house out and travelling,” she tells her grown up sons after reading “The Pitter Patter of Thirty-Year-Old Feet” in the Sydney Morning Herald.
- “You’re ready to leave home are you mum?” said one son.
- “Why don’t you just go on a long holiday instead,” said the other.
- “I want a new beginning, a change of career, a new home, a community of people, an intimate relationship with a significant other, that sort of thing.”
- “You could always get yourself a dog,” suggests a friend.
- Her son moves out when she puts his rent up.
- “Are you going to wait till he buys a new house for cash before you ask for a decent rent?” her mother had said.
- “I’ve decided to go and live with Dad for a change,” says the other son.
- “I’ll be away for six to twelve months,” Joanna says as she throws her client files on the rubbish tip.
- She spends the spring in Italy. The summer in England, Scotland and Ireland. The autumn walking the gorge country of the Ardeche in France.
- In the winter she rents a studio apartment in Villefranche on the French Riviera. The studio belongs to a friend of a friend so she’s able to get it at a good price. She works as a casual deck hand on one of the luxury cruisers in dry dock for maintenance. “The first thing I want you to do,” says her boss when she arrives at work on the first day, “is blitz the tender.” After a backbreaking morning of hard physical work cleaning the small run-about she goes to lunch. She orders a salad nicoise and a coffee and realises her lunch will cost her a morning’s pay.
- A young and handsome French man who lives in Paris but comes to Villefranche to visit his grandmother most weekends, pursues her. Joanna comes to realise that French men love and cherish women as much as they appreciate good food.
- She shops at the markets, paints and reads and falls in love with the light and the colours of the south of France.
- “I’m able to live contentedly alone without a regular job, without a car, without speaking the language,” she writes to her friends back home.
- In the summer she moves on again before the tourist masses arrive and the rent goes up.
- She gives away to her new friends in Villefranche all the things that won’t now fit in her backpack but keeps her paint brushes and pallet knife.
- On the Greek island of Skyros she joins a group of landscape artists led by a famous English painter.
- “My purpose in leading this group is to help everyone find their own unique style,” says the woman.
- Joanna spends the autumn in London meeting with other artists from the island and the woman becomes her mentor and they meet for a cup of tea every week and talk about the isolation of being an artist as well as many other things.
- “It’s important to stop and regenerate before the creative battery runs flat,” she says.
- Joanna paints every day and goes out with an English man named Clive.
- “Your painting is vivid and alive,” says the famous English artist. “I’ll write you a letter of introduction to my contacts in Australia when you’re ready to exhibit this collection.”
- Clive has a strong face with chiselled square cheekbones. Dark brown eyes and dark hair that falls in a square fringe on his forehead. His fingers are long and sensitive for playing the piano.
- “What are you doing there?” her mother asks on the phone from across the ocean.
- “I’m painting,” says Joanna.
- “But what are you doing?”
- “My mother is like a poisonous gas that can cross from one side of the world to the other,” Joanna says.
- Joanna dreams about her sons every night and Clive tells her she cries in her sleep.
- She yearns for the bright Australian light and for the sound of the ocean.
- She returns to Australia for her eldest son’s wedding.
- In Sydney, Joanna supplements her income from the house rental by getting a job as a casual for a clothing company. She unpacks boxes and steampresses the garments. Her back, neck and shoulders ache and she suspects she’s getting RSI from the steampresser.
- Clive rings to say he’s coming to visit her.
- In preparation for his arrival she moves all her furniture out of storage and rents a small place near the beach hoping that he’ll love it in Australia and decide to stay.
- Two weeks before his arrival Clive rings to say he’s not coming and Joanna finds out through a friend that he’s met someone else and is moving in with her.
- She tears up his photos and throws his Christmas present at the wall.
- Joanna stops painting.
- She reflects on the past and all that she’s lost.
- I thought when love for you died, I should die. It’s dead. Alone, most strangely, I live on. Rupert Brooke.
- Joanna stays in bed most days but still feels so tired that she can only remain vertical for four hours in any twenty-four hour period.
- The phone stops ringing.
- She rehearses her own death by going to the edge of the cliff.
- From the edge she sketches the waves breaking on rocks, the lone seagull on the shore at the water’s edge.
- At home she fills in the drawing, blending black charcoal and white pastel reminding herself the darkest hour is before the dawn.
- And, after winter spring always comes.
- Joanna sells the house where she lived with her children and spends half the money on a home unit overlooking the ocean and the rest of the money on Australian shares.
- Her new home faces the east and she can smell the salt from the ocean.
- “It takes twenty years to be a successful artist,” echoes in her mind.
- On a new canvas she drags the colours of the sunrise across the blank white space.
Copyright © 2016 Libby Sommer
First published in Overland Literary Journal
When I used to teach classes to beginning writers, it was good. It forced me to think back to the beginning to when I first put pen to paper. The thing is, every time we sit down and face the blank page, it’s the same. Every time we start a new piece of writing, we doubt that we can do it again. A new voyage with no map. As people say, it is like setting off towards the horizon, alone in a boat, and the only thing another person can do to help us, is to wave from the shore.
So when I used to teach a creative writing class, I had to tell them the story all over again and remember that this is the first time my students are hearing it. I had to start at the very beginning.
First up, there’s the pen on the page. You need this intimate relationship between the pen and the paper to get the flow of words happening. A fountain pen is best because the ink flows quickly. We think faster than we can write. It needs to be a “fat” pen to avoid RSI.